Tuesday

It's Tuesday of a new week. Last week was rough, in a lot of ways. This week has potential either way. I have two hours of practice tonight. I am looking forward to that. I am mildly afraid of what Thursday and Friday will hold. But as long as I can pry my mouth open, I think it will go fine. I just need to speak up for myself before things get any further out of control. I want to have my passion back. I want to look forward to Thursdays and Fridays again. They used to be the highlight of my week.

On that note, Bonnie and I are going for ice cream.

Friday

what sort of office pranks are viable where you work?

• I am not sure yet. I am still too new. But here is an odd and interesting factoid: I was given a project today to choreograph a routine for a lawn mower precision drill team. Weird.

do you feel like sand sculptures are a waste of time? why or why not?

• A waste of my time, certainly. I don't have the patience or the desire to craft one, but I do enjoy them when I see them.

seen any good movies lately?

• I enjoyed most of August Rush and since that is the only movie I have watched in about six months, we'll go with that one.

what's something you've learned recently that contradicts what you've always believed?

• I am not in any hurry to have children of my own. Odd, I know.

name three items of food you would definitely not like to be:

• Water Chestnut. Too Bland.
• Jalapeno. The only people I know who like Jalapenos are annoying. I don't want to attract those kind of people.
• String Beans. They are limp and I don't think I look very good in green.

what's the oddest animal you've ever had in your mouth?

• Squid. Sorry not too adventurous.

Mom

Happy Birthday Mom!

Tuesday

It's Tuesday. I have about 10 more minutes here and then I am off to the Liskeys to babysit while Jack has baseball practice. While I am there I am going to wash my pants because they are drenched with baby formula from my best work buddy, Dan. Then off to the studio for a wonderful Waltz and Cha Cha lesson with Tim. Hooray! All in all, a good day!

Except still no volunteers. :(

Net

Here's my Net Net of the last two days.

Sunday morning. Sucked. Out of control Kindergartners and thirty other students equals Kimi crying for an hour afterwards.

Sunday afternoon. Quality time with Ben Liskey. Good times.

Sunday evening. Indiana Jones Life Board Game. AMAZING.

Monday day. 50 phone calls. No volunteers to make sure Sunday morning doesn't happen again.

Monday night. good times. quickstep, digits, and silly girl giggles. hooray.

Bring on Tuesday.

Ball

The Crystal Ball is this weekend. I would love to go and watch. I would love to compete. Oh well, Indiana Challenge here I come.

Work is busy and hectic and stressful, but I am learning more everyday.

Dance is great, but I have hurt my foot. I nurse it back to feeling ok, by the time I have dance, but by the time I am done, it hurts even worse. I don't get to dance tomorrow night so it will be a good time to rest it for the dancing marathon on Thursday and Friday.

Five

brought to you by cory...

are you sweet on Tim?

• How many times have I told you no? He is married, has two children, and is much older than I am. I talk about him a lot because he is associated closely with the thing that makes me happiest. He is an amazing dancer and makes me laugh. I learn a great deal from him. The closest comparison I have for you is like being star struck with a celebrity.
• Cory, I have told you about another interest, maybe you and I could talk about that sometime.

what's something people don't know about you, but they should?

• I am absolutely terrified of walking alone at night, anywhere. If it is to my car in a parking lot, or to my dorm room, whatever. I avoid it at all costs.

"would you, could you in a box? would you, could you with a fox?" what do you think Dr. Seuss was trying to say with this line?

• I am pretty sure Dr. Seuss was making a comment about conservation with this particular line in "Green Eggs in Ham". As Sam is trying to convince the main character to experience something new and wonderful (substitute with some type of technology) Dr. Seuss is trying to remind the reader to find a way to help conservation and progress coexist.

rank in order of best stress relief: dancing, hitting a pillow, punching the heavy bag, driving whilst singing, going for a walk

1. Dancing (Imagine that)
2. Driving Whilst Singing
3. Going for a walk
4. Hitting a pillow
5. Punching the heavy bag

what's do you think God's been teaching you this week?

• I have been way beyond stressed this past week because of money issues and time issues and just being afraid that I wouldn't be able to do my job. God has been proving his presence in small ways this week. I got a break at the gas pump when I needed it. I have had lots of positive feedback already about my ideas at the church. I have had some great dance classes this week which have helped to majorly de-stress. The best one was on Wednesday. Silver Swing with John. He is so funny and makes me laugh. I also danced really well and got a compliment from another great dancer. God is helping me to remember that He is there and will not leave me despite the stress.

Compliment

Tim said something absolutely incredible to me. I think. It was by far the greatest compliment I have ever received dancing wise, if it was meant to be taken at face value and if in fact I did not dream it up in some sort of delusional fantasy. It has created in me a sort of scene reminiscent of My Fair Lady, when Eliza has accomplished the task of saying "The rain in Spain", and she sings "I could have danced all night" in response to dancing with Henry Higgins. I am amazed at the comments he made to me and I only hope he was sincere in saying them. He spends a great deal of time putting me in my place and trying to make sure I remember I am still a beginner and not as good as I might imagine. So, if what he said was in fact meant at face value, that would be huge!

Delusion

I got a massive reality check tonight. Ouch. I am trying to trust in God's sovereignty.

Desk

The View from MY Desk:

I never thought I would enjoy cubicle life so much. It's great to work sitting down. This is the first job I have ever had in which I was allowed to sit, much less expected to sit. And my back loves it.

I love listening to my music as I am working. That is, when my Hawaiian music loving office mate is not in the office.

After sitting all day, I am totally and completely ready to dance. At Borders, I would usually be tired and ready to get off my feet. But now, despite my soreness from yesterday, I am ready to dance!

I like having an office next to the playground. It lets me watch the kids while I am working and remember why I am doing what I do.

I like that I now have weeded out one file drawer and have it organized in a way that makes sense to me.

I can't wait to hang up my own personal items on my grey cork walls.

People have been really great around here as far as trying to make me feel comfortable and answering any questions that I have.

Showcase Update

Yesterday was amazing. I love dancing and performing. Despite my normal, overly self-critical nature, I thought I did really pretty well. I have caught the bug. Unfortunately that means I have to scrimp and save so I can keep doing it, but it is totally worth it. I definitely want to dance for the rest of my life.