Belle

I am so excited for Friday! I finally get to dress up and be acknowledged as a princess! A Disney Princess as that! I will be Belle on Friday and I am so excited!

"It's no wonder that her name means beauty. Her looks have got no parallel!"

Awesome! Well, I am going to do a little character study before I go to bed! Night!

Esteem

Mom - Don't Read This You Will Only Find More Reason To Yell At Me

THINGS I HAVE BEEN TOLD IN THE PAST 2 DAYS
I am apparently the worst person on the planet because:
I am self-righteous
I am a jerk
I hurt everyone
I am sickly
I am too easily stressed
I am narrow
I am a negative
I am a whiner
I am a complainer
I am an attention seeker
I am fussy


Apparently, I am just plain rotten. Well, forget it! If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all. Well, I am done! I won't be talking any more....

Knit

This is the scarf and hat. It is a really pale pink in case you can't tell.

School was kinda uneventful today. The kids seemed rather calm and I was really out of it. I did a lot of cutting and pasting today. Just a lot of grunt work. I suppose that is why it felt uneventful. Oh well. The break from the kids was appreciated.

I'm exhausted... I am hopeful to go to sleep really really early tonight...

Weekend

Grandma and Grandpa LeMay, you are in my prayers. I love you both so much. I hope to see you both again soon.

Grandma LeMay's dinner was amazing as always, and I heard Grandma Driver's was excellent as well.

I learned to knit (cheater style) while in Ohio and made this hat and scarf! I think they are pretty good.

(Well, I was gonna post pictures of both in here, but my internet stinks! I'll try tomorrow!)


Well, I'm exhausted. I'm off to bed. Night!

Rent

Rent is an amazing movie. I really enjoyed the plot and the music. What I did not enjoy was the symbolism of the movie to me and the after affects I was forced to undergo. Oh well. In God's time, I will be totally healed. In the mean time, GO SEE RENT! It is a little rough around the edges and definitely should be R rated not PG 13, but still and excellent musical!

Summer

After one night with the Liskeys, I have my summer plans! I'm so excited! It will be great!

Anger

Oh the insanity of it all! Alright, I got it. I've learned my lesson.... again.... I get it, I now realize it is not something specific to the one, it is specific to all. Ok, see, I get it. The answer is no. See, I get it. Now, please, please, don't make me have to use this lesson again. It's too hard for me.

Covenant

So I tried a new church today, Covenant Presbyterian Church. It was an interesting experience to walk into a new church and know more people then I do at my normal church. One of the women that spoke really stuck a chord with me. Not a bad chord, just gave me a tangible example of why I still hold on to hope.

So, two more days of class next week then Thanksgiving Break! I am really rather excited. I need a break from Block 3. It is driving me up the wall. I'm going to work really hard to be not only decent, but also respectful to Angie. A very difficult undertaking, but necessary. The end of Pleasant Hill Elementary is in sight! Not that I do not enjoy spending time with most of the children, but due to the work load, the school as a whole has become an unpleasant sight.

Random thought: The more I watch QVC (because that is all we can really watch with our lame cable) the better and better the products look to me. I have actually considered more than once buying something from the channel. When they show some obscure use for a product which is obviously designed for a separate purpose, I am completely drawn in. I think, "I never thought about using the $50 hair clips to attach my broken purse strap! Now, I am sure I need them!" Pathetic, I know. But after so many hours they suck you into their little world of delusion in which everything they sell is a Special Value and has at least 4 different obvious uses.

Pain

So I recieved a figurative blow to the stomach tonight. We watched a movie which had a quote that meant a lot a to me this summer. It was a reminder of all of the pain I had endured this summer. Ouch.

But my friends were there for me, and helped me through.

Pathetic

Bible study was great tonight!

I discovered today that I am not a normal college student. When faced with an extremely common scenario for any normal student, I freaked. I responded in an way which would be common for someone twice my age or half my age. Pathetic. Oh well. It seemed to work out in the end.

Hilarious! Cory, I can't wait to talk to you about this!

Family

WARNING: THIS IS GOING TO BE A SAD/PATHETIC POST, IF YOU ARE NOT WANTING TO BE BUMMED OUT, PLEASE DO NOT READ.

Part of me is excited for Christmas, well, because it is Christmas. But a large part of me is really not looking forward to it. I need the break, I am anxious for this semester to end, but Christmas will not be the same this year. Every year it has always been the Driver Kids, but this year Cory won't be there. He is always the life of the party with his jokes and mannerism. He keeps us all in check and keeps me from beating up Kevin when he sings one to many songs with my name in it. Cory, you are greatly missed. Christmas just won't be the same without you.

On the up side, I am looking forward to spending some brother/sister time with Kevin. I feel as though I have never really gotten to know Kevin as an adult. He seemed to be just the exact amount of years older than me that he was gone before I got to a similar stage and even when he has been home, like Driver Family Christmases, I never got to spend one on one time with him because we were always a threesome. So Kevin, I am looking forward to spending time getting to know you.

I keep trying to remember the reason for Christmas, as cliche as that sounds, but I can't seem to get past the fact that my family just will not be the same this year, in so many ways. That is not to say we were always perfect in the past, with my girlish temper tantrums, Kevin's "Kim Songs," Cory's knack for getting really hyper in small places like when all three of us are in the back seat, and various other key problems. But at least all these annoyances are familiar. I know what to expect and I can imagine and laugh about how stressed I would be later. Sorry this is such a downer, but as I have started watching Christmas movies with family scenes such as "While You Were Sleeping" and am struck with the thought of what our Christmas has looked like and will look like this year.

So Kev, looking forward to spending time with you one on one, but Cory you will be sorely missed. Here are a few nostalgic pictures of memories with my brothers.

Christmas Time

Fourth of July

I love you both!

Rainy

It is a rainy day today.

As I am about to venture outside, I wish I had some rain boots.

These Rain Boots or These Rain Boots.

Well, that is all the update I have time for today.

Someday

Someday I will be able to talk on the phone again.
Someday I will sleep more than four hours in a night.
Someday I will have time to eat a meal again.
Someday I will not see the wee-hours of the morning.
Someday I will not have a migraine.
Someday I will not have a stomach ache.
Someday I will no longer be exhausted.
Someday I will no longer be grumpy.
Someday Block 3 will be over.


Sorry, just needed to give myself some hope to look at while I am up all night again.

Grounded

After giving myself a trial run, I have discovered I cannot handle AIM, so I am re-grounding myself. My apologies. I know it is easier to talk to me over that medium, but I just cannot handle it yet. Pray for me please. There are days when I still struggle.

What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

-Superchic[k] - Courage

Havana

So I went to Allison's dorm room tonight to watch a movie as a study break. We watch Dirty Dancing Havana Nights, which I have to say I really liked.



So I have two fun quotes from the movie and a fun conversation with Allison....

"Make a circle.... That's a box"

"Do you have to be such a guy?"
"Oh, then I'll be the girl!"

Allison - "That's when they DTRed"
Me - "What?"
Allison - "Defined the Relationship"
Me - While laughing, "We are such Navigators!"

Treasure

I have a treasure trove here. It is wonderful to be among people who earnestly seek God's will in their lives. It is a blessing to be among people who are willing to be invested in my life. I was once again cornered and I am delighted. Thank you Travis and Laura. I am so blessed for God placing these people in my life!

This weekend has already started out the exact way I wanted it to. I am rested and recharged emotionally and spiritually and I am ready to go!

God is working in my life daily and I am excited! I endure sufferings right now, but Romans 5:3-5

Have a wonderful, blessed weekend!

Funny

Too funny! I think I will now have to be even more vague. Too funny! However, I need to remain in hiding for a little while longer in order to ensure my secret is well enough hidden. Someday I may be able to return to AIM, but for now, I will have to hide some more.

Wow

Not really sure what to say. Lots of stuff has been thrown at me in the last couple of days. I can hardly wait until Thursday and Friday. I'm excited to be recharged. I need to be recharged. It's amazing how much only four days can tear you down.

Well, there have been interesting things happening. We have moved to a new level. What sort of level? I am not sure. It is either a new level or kidding around or something else. I think I am going to stick with the new level of kidding around. Self-preservation techniques, you know? But even if it is all in fun and kidding, it is still kind-of an ego boost.

Anyway, it's going to be a busy weekend, but I am so looking forward to a lack of class. Only 6 more visits to Pleasant Hill. Hooray!

Random

This is Bob. He started as a simple smiley face with two dots for eyes a smile and a circle head. Then he progressed to his current state with Amy and I passing him back and forth and adding a little each time. Meet Bob.



On another note, I am once again forced to my knees as I sit, wait, and trust God. I know He can handle all things. He is powerful enough and He is trustworthy. So, I will endure.

On another note, we are under a tornado watch here. Crazy! Well, I need to get back to homework. So much to do!

Kids

I found a picture one of my students colored for me when I was going through my back-pack today. I guess not all of the kids hate me! Maybe I can work with kids after all. Here is the picture the student made.

It is crumpled because another student tried to grab it and destroy it because she did not have a drawing of her own to give to me. It's nice to be loved by kids.

Oops

Well kids, I accidentally fell asleep last night before I got all my work done. Fortunately, I woke up early enough to finish the work that is actually due today. However, there is no way I will have enough time to study to test out of MA 139. So, I guess I will be taking that on Thursday morning, I hope.

It's gotten really homework busy again. Not Cool. I have about 6 or 8 papers to write this weekend for my EDCI classes and the phonics exam on Wednesday. I don't really care whether I get the certificate that goes with it, I just don't want to have to take it more than once.

Anyway, the end of the semester is approaching quickly and I just have to hold out until then!

Only 7 more visits to Pleasant Hill Elementary!

Its time for me to shower and head out to Office Max or Depot, I don't remember which one.

Teacher

So I lost my temper with a first grader today.

I didn't act on my anger, but I was so furious. She pushed my buttons when I was not expecting them to be pushed and something just clicked in my brain. All of this goes to say, I should definitely never been a teacher, and maybe I should not even work with kids. That blows all of my theories about what I should be doing with my life.

On a different note, I have enjoyed several movies and TV shows in the last several days. It has been very relaxing! It helps me to do homework without stressing out. It's a great system.

Speaking of homework, I am sick of having assignments that require copying and scanning. I have to ask Amanda to borrow her scanner/copier/printer combo, and I have feel bad doing that. I don't understand how they can assign us stuff and assume we have the equipment to complete the assignments.

I don't really have a whole lot to say. Nothing really exciting has been going on and I don't seem to have any interesting projects or experiments going on in my classes.

I am still reading Narnia (slowly). I hope to finish before the movie comes out in the theaters. I can't wait to see it! It should be exciting.

Okay, I am going to start my homework now. I sure hope I am productive tonight.

Sleep

I'm exhausted after staying up too late last night. I am going to have my quiet time, nap for three hours, and the update my blog and call those of you waiting to talk to me!


Here's some random picture of me pretending to sleep...

New

I somehow messed up my blog template the other day and decided instead of trying to fix it I would try something new. So I searched the internet for hours to try to find a new template with a design that I liked and all of the bells and whistles that I wanted. However, I could not find one that fit my needs. So I created this one. If you do not understand the flames at the top, just check out my profile. I hope you all like it. It took way too long and for some reason came before my homework, so now I am in a big panic to finish my work. Anyway, let me know what you think!

Awe

God has provided for me in ways I could not even imagine. Today, I stand in awe. I have prayed for weeks for a specific request and today it was put to the test, and God more than came through for me.

Big Enough to Hold Me

These lyrics were placed in my head this morning and calmed my mind. I wasn't sure a first where this song was from, but ironically I have heard it at Campus House. Check out the lyrics. They are great!

Thanks for holding me up in prayer for the few of you who knew to pray.

I am truly amazed today at the power and compassion from my God.

Rain

I love rainy days. They are the perfect day to be productive. I cleaned our kitchen and took out all our garbage. I made the girls and I breakfast this morning. Mmm mmm cinnamon rolls!

I had my own miniature after-rally last night because the real after-rally was not really an option for me. So Dawn, Christine, and I came to my apartment and into my room and watched Cheaper By the Dozen and then about half of it with the kid's commenting in the back ground. I also made about 2 dozen cookies for us to eat. It was a pretty decent night.

Tonight is game night with Kari and Amy. I am pumped. Should be lots of fun!

Well, its time to be productive again. I am going to have my QT then start my homework! Have a wonderful, restful Saturday!

Morning

I'm not sure why I named this morning. I actually missed all of the morning. Despite waking up with some serious stomach pain, I slept a full twelve hours. Amazing. I haven't done that in so long. It was great! It is wonderful to finally be able to catch up on sleep. I actually do not have that much homework to do this weekend and I am very excited at the lack of work! Should be a great weekend.

Bowling was awesome last night! I think I achieved my lowest score ever! After we ran out of memory verses for gutterballs, we switched to kids songs which somehow switched to Broadway musicals. It was a good time! What a wonderful way to start my weekend!

Bowling

Bowling was super fun! And despite several too many bumps on the head, I can still memorize scripture pretty well! I'm exhausted! Good Night!

Rambling

I apologize but this post will make absolutely no sense to most of you. However, these are my thoughts from my shower this morning and I just need to get these thoughts out.

I didn't want to be Angel. I wanted to be Michael Hosea. I thought I was going to be the okay one who would help fix someone else. However, I have realized I am the one with the baggage who will be a burden to someone else. I am Angel. I have had a Duke. Oh, goodness! Is that what this has been? A Duke to break me enough so I have to come back to my first love (Christ) and then after I have been healed, I am allowed to be with a Michael Hosea. I really didn't want to have to be Angel.

Okay, enough of that. I just want to say that these are all characters from my favorite book, which at the moment is helping me to understand my current situation.

Anyway, I finally figured out how to put my MP3 Bible onto my iPod. I'm excited for it!
I have only two classes today with a hour and a half break in the middle, which I am excited to use to read Narnia on campus, try to get a hold of the Liskeys, and to work on some verses for Scripture Memory bowling tonight. I am looking forward to the break!

Have a wonderful day everyone!

Here

Not much to say today. School was ok. I was only there half the day because we had a project to do on campus. I got to eat at Potbellies. Yum. Um, I tried desperately hard to not be so angry at Angie, and did a decent job until we made it out to the car. I took a nap, two hour nap. Probably shouldn't have but oh well. I am about to go eat the last of my sloppy joe mix. Then I will spend basically the rest of the night reading for school. Except for a highly likely ice cream break. Sorry. Nothing really exciting to post today.

Except that I have a game night on Saturday that I am really and truly excited for!

Anyway, have a good night.

I think I want to post a fun picture for you because this post is so boring. So here is a fun picture.

Break

Gimme a Break, Gimme a break, break me off a piece of that Kit-Kat Bar!

So, I have finally gotten a break from school. I will only have to do a miniscule amount of homework tonight, and the rest of the night will be composed of vegging out in front of my TV. I'm so excited! I ordered in a pizza for dinner and I have begun the vegging process. Awesome!