Ouch

I'm having sort of a rough night. I seem to be surrounded by drama and when other drama compounds with my own, it is just more than I can bare. Scratch that. Not more than I can bare, but more than I feel like I can bare. I know God is with me. It's just hard to see it when I am alone at night. I must keep reminding myself of Romans 5:3-5. I know Christ gives and has given me hope. I just struggle when it gets dark. I'll leave with a little superchic[k] reminder.

There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day.

On second thought, I'll leave with thoughts of blessings. I am blessed to be a part of E-Team. I can already tell that it is going to stretch me in new ways and help me to become the person I want to be. I am blessed to have gone to a church this morning that inspired me to think and focus on the crucial. I am blessed to have a brother who came and visited me and made time to talk with me at the beginning of this break down. I am blessed to have a mom who is encouraging and loves me regardless. I am blessed to have friends who stand by me and like me for who I truly am and know who I truly am. I am blessed to be getting to know my father better and keeping in contact with him. I am blessed to have a carpool tomorrow to get me to school without using my gas. I am blessed to have a room to retreat to when I need to be alone. I am blessed to have a computer to keep in touch with family. I am blessed to have an assignment to meet and get to know 10 people this week, because I know it will truly test me. I am blessed to have a warm bed which is beginning to call my name. Finally, I am blessed for the opportunity to spend some time in the Word of God before I go to sleep.