Update

There has been much occurring in the last week. My roommate has made a big decision in her life and I am so proud of her. I pray that she sticks to her decision and is not swayed by circumstance. She is an amazing woman and I am grateful that God forced her into Dawn and my life. God really knows what He is doing.

I met with Mindy (Nav girl) on Friday afternoon, and we had a really good, really honest talk. Sometimes it is amazing how much you have in common with someone. It is refreshing to see someone struggling in the same way you are.

Due to Sarah's decision, I was able to sit in the presence of Travis and Laura again. Their wisdom astounds me. I am grateful that they are so willing to invest their time and their life in me and the lives of others. I am excited for my opportunity to meet with them Tuesday.

Also due to some of Sarah's issues. I have learned of some skills I was unaware that I possessed. These skills may be extremely in the near future.

Again, because of some of the events of the weekend, I have realized that a part of my life which I thought I would never put behind me. Now, finally, feels like the past instead of the present. I am not sure at what point that occurred, but I feel like it is a huge step.

I am again looking forward to the school year. I can see that God is trying to teach me how He sees me. I seem to have been informed of my identity throughout my whole life. Others tell me who I am, and what is wrong with me. As was said at the Fall Conference. The difference between guilt and shame. Guilt=I did something wrong, Shame=I am something wrong. People in my life have made me feel such shame and that is not God's desire. That is not how He sees me. I attended a workshop called "Believers position in Christ" and we were all given name tags describing how we are seen by God because of Christ. My name tag was Made Righteous. We read about what this meant and mine essentially meant, that I took on Christ's righteousness when He took on my sin, and therefore, I have been made morally right. It was during this talk when we were talking about being worthwhile, desired, and precious; that I found myself saying. I don't believe that. This shocked the crap out of me because I know all of that. However, it occurred to me that I have a head knowledge of this but not a heart knowledge. It is really easy to know "God thinks I am worthwhile" and a lot harder to believe "God thinks I am worthwhile". Anyway, so I am planning on looking into how God sees me.

I am so blessed to have the roommates that I do. I can't imagine having a better group of girls for my last year at school. A visitor this weekend who met Dawn and I for the first time said, "You all are so completely different, but you work so incredibly well together." I think that is us to a T. We all have our strengths and weaknesses and when put together we fit really well together. That is not to say that we all get along all the time. But, we address it quickly and appropriately and we are back on track. I love them both.

I think that is about it for today.

Here's a bit of homework for the readers. Who are we in Christ? Give me a single word answer for our position in Christ!