Last night was amazingly fun and heart-breaking all at the same time.
Yesterday started with Super Brunch. It would be too long to explain the process of brunch growing throughout the semester, so suffice it to say, brunch is a lot of Navs getting together and fellowshiping over breakfast food.
Then we had the junior jams invaded cook-out. My class eats together every Wednesday. We decided to have a cook-out and it was invaded... big time... So we have about 30 people just below my apartment cooking out, chatting, playing sports, playing my guitar, and various other activities. It was during this event I began to have a realization.
Next we head to date night with Amy Redman., The girls that I have grown up with in college decided to meet together and insist that Amy comes for our last time all together. This basically cemented the deal.
So late last night, after talking with my roommate for an exceptionally long time, I realized yesterday was the last time I will ever see about 95 percent of those people. I tried to look around, I tried to absorb it all and enjoy every moment. But at some point, you realize. This is the end.
Leaving Purdue is very bitter-sweet. I use that word because I have heard Travis say it and enormous amount of time in the past few weeks. I am so ready for summer. I am ready to live by the Liskeys and be able to see them frequently. I am ready to live at home and take whatever stress that will undoubtedly bring from being a divorced kid. I am ready to not ever, ever, ever, have to take another exam. I am ready to start real life and experience whatever God has for me in that. But some part of me still feels like I will return here in the fall. I am not ready to leave my Navigator girls. I am not ready to eventually lose contact with most of these people because that is just a sad effect of real life. I am not ready to lose this comfort zone of being surrounded by Christians who spur me on at every turn and every event in my life. I am not ready to give up the randomness of college life. I am not ready to lose my group of girl's from last years study.
All these emotions came to a head last night. I am not a crier. I am not a very emotional person. But I am waiting for this realization of "the last time" to hit.
Sorry, this is sort of a bummer post, but that is where I am at right now.
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8 comments:
If you "walk," you'll probably see a few then....
Also, you might be surprised... people travel a lot these days, and a lot of Purdue people live relatively close to school, all things considered.
But yeah, it's kinda weird facing the end of an era. I'm excited to see what God has for you too Kimi, but also, I don't think we should limit Him or rule anything out just because it's something we're not found of, even if they are tests. ;) However, that applies to most things in life. Sometimes the challenges or things we don't like to do or aren't excited to face (maybe being a teacher after all in order to have a stable job for a time) are the places where God can use us the most, and if we're fulfilling His purposes then that should be a good thing.
Oooh, also, update my link on your page. You need the :8080 in there.
Kimi, I hope you took the opportunity to take lots of pictures. while it may not be fun while you are doing it, it is a wonderful way to bring back remembrances.
I know this all is tough, darlin, but you are walking right and you will be more than fine.
love you forever.
Kimi, i kind of agree with Kevin, i think. people eat bittersweet candy because the sweet outlasts the bitter. this is an exciting time for you! i pray you'll enjoy it.
Haha. Oh man. I read this comment of mine, and it makes little to no sense.
What I was trying to say was this:
1) I know you are glad to be done with school and "never having to take tests again," but what if He wants you to go back to school sometime? What if He wants you to go to seminary, even? There will be tests there.
2) I know you aren't really excited about being a teacher, but I also think that God can call us to things we're not thrilled about and that He can provide fulfillment in those things where we didn't think we'd find any.
wow. these kids are really so very wise. what a blessing.
Thanks for tranlating Kev, I think I got most of it, but it was much clearer the second time.
Cory, I am not sure I know what kind of candy is bittersweet?
Thanks mom
:( well I will at least miss you... but hey... I can't be as cool as the girls last year in your Bible study... :(
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