Gone

I'm in Michigan at a beautiful 2.something million dollar house on a beach with one of my best friends and the four most amazing children I know. And I miss my husband so much I can hardly breathe. Literally feel pain in my chest. Why did I think I would be ok without him for a few days? My life is so entwined with him, that I can't do anything without thinking of him. I feel like a ungrateful jerk to be sad in such a beautiful place, but I just miss him so much.