Thanksgiving

I like my bed. It is nice and big. I like my room. It is pretty and I enjoy the colors I picked. Black is so soothing. Not really deep. Just looking for some positives.

Waves

Trying to experiment with some new blog settings.

Picture

I'm trying to add a picture. We are going to try this out.

Providence

God's providence is seriously amazing. God put a woman in my life (Mindy) who knows me inside and out, purely because she is the same person. God is great at making you see his provision. Ask me about her sometime.

America

4 Days until my brother comes to America!

Countdown

5 Days until my brother comes home.

Temporary

In a movie I saw a long time ago, there is a quote that says, "Until the effects wear off, you should probably just consider yourself temporarily insane." Today, I am anyone but myself. I have a huge range of emotions. I hope this wears off soon. I pretty much know when it will end, but there is just too much going on right now to add the joy of temporary insanity.

Sorry, purposely vague. I just don't want to go into the detail of the emotions.

Storm

Praise You In This Storm

by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now

That You would have reached down

And wiped our tears away

Stepped in and saved the day

But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear Your whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm

And I will lift my hands

For You are who You are

No matter where I am

Every tear I've cried

You hold in Your hand

You never left my side

And though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

I remember when

I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry

You raised me up again

My strength is almost gone

How can I carry on

If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I'm really struggling right now, with everything. And yet, I will praise Him in this storm because He is where my help comes from.

Survey

Just want to know... Is it weird when a stranger firsts touches, grabs, and holds unto your thigh?

Update

There has been much occurring in the last week. My roommate has made a big decision in her life and I am so proud of her. I pray that she sticks to her decision and is not swayed by circumstance. She is an amazing woman and I am grateful that God forced her into Dawn and my life. God really knows what He is doing.

I met with Mindy (Nav girl) on Friday afternoon, and we had a really good, really honest talk. Sometimes it is amazing how much you have in common with someone. It is refreshing to see someone struggling in the same way you are.

Due to Sarah's decision, I was able to sit in the presence of Travis and Laura again. Their wisdom astounds me. I am grateful that they are so willing to invest their time and their life in me and the lives of others. I am excited for my opportunity to meet with them Tuesday.

Also due to some of Sarah's issues. I have learned of some skills I was unaware that I possessed. These skills may be extremely in the near future.

Again, because of some of the events of the weekend, I have realized that a part of my life which I thought I would never put behind me. Now, finally, feels like the past instead of the present. I am not sure at what point that occurred, but I feel like it is a huge step.

I am again looking forward to the school year. I can see that God is trying to teach me how He sees me. I seem to have been informed of my identity throughout my whole life. Others tell me who I am, and what is wrong with me. As was said at the Fall Conference. The difference between guilt and shame. Guilt=I did something wrong, Shame=I am something wrong. People in my life have made me feel such shame and that is not God's desire. That is not how He sees me. I attended a workshop called "Believers position in Christ" and we were all given name tags describing how we are seen by God because of Christ. My name tag was Made Righteous. We read about what this meant and mine essentially meant, that I took on Christ's righteousness when He took on my sin, and therefore, I have been made morally right. It was during this talk when we were talking about being worthwhile, desired, and precious; that I found myself saying. I don't believe that. This shocked the crap out of me because I know all of that. However, it occurred to me that I have a head knowledge of this but not a heart knowledge. It is really easy to know "God thinks I am worthwhile" and a lot harder to believe "God thinks I am worthwhile". Anyway, so I am planning on looking into how God sees me.

I am so blessed to have the roommates that I do. I can't imagine having a better group of girls for my last year at school. A visitor this weekend who met Dawn and I for the first time said, "You all are so completely different, but you work so incredibly well together." I think that is us to a T. We all have our strengths and weaknesses and when put together we fit really well together. That is not to say that we all get along all the time. But, we address it quickly and appropriately and we are back on track. I love them both.

I think that is about it for today.

Here's a bit of homework for the readers. Who are we in Christ? Give me a single word answer for our position in Christ!