Poison

I have sucked all of the poison out. So much so that the bite wound doesn't even really hurt anymore. The marks are still there as a reminder, but it no longer hurts.

Nine

Experiencing Concussion Number Nine.
Enough Said.

I will likely not be posting much in the near future until the pain stops.

Quotes

First, will put in a nut shell what I learned in Bible Study. Truly inspired by this.

Romans 14:23 But the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.

Thought by Kim: Anything which isn't brought about by faith is sin.

Hebrews 2:17 In the same way, faith by itself; if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

Thought by Kim: If I cannot act upon my faith or show it through my actions, then maybe my faith is non-existent. Faith should be a precursor to action. If I have faith in Christ and what He did for me, then I should seek to please Him with my life through my actions.

Thought by Kim and Study in a Nut Shell: "Faith without deeds is dead, but deeds without faith are sin." Faith is shown and strengthened by deeds, but deeds done without faith (with wrong motive or without God) are sinful.

Thought by Kim: The girls in my study are amazingly insightful. I am blessed to have such great thinkers to help me read through the Bible.

The emotional purity workshop:

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it s the wellspring of life.

Warning: These are quotes given by either males or females. They reflect the kind of males I seek to have in my life.

Flirting:
"Woman see flirty woman as confident, but men see flirty woman as insecure."

Initiation:
"Woman try to manipulate and maneuver. We manipulate the situation to control it, or we maneuver ourselves in the situation."

Modesty:
1 Samuel 16:7 But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.

Thought by Kimi: I do not want a man to pursue me for my outward appearance, I want a man who pursues me as God does, for my heart.

1 Peter 3:3-5 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands.

Thought by Kim: My new motto! Give me my T-shirt and Jeans any day! I want to please God with my gentle and quiet spirit, and if God so desires have those same characteristics attract my husband.

Quote: "The quality of the woman will designate the quality of the man."

Thought by Kim: If I continually seek to honor God with my actions and my heart and seek that which God has planned for me, then the man which I am supposed marry will most likely be at this same level. However if I do not seek to honor God and do not seek His will, then I will likely find a boy, who is also at this same level.

Thought by Kim: Several woman at this workshop mentioned the difficulty of waiting. After much reflection I have realized I no longer have difficulty waiting to see if God puts a godly man in my life. I have discovered, it is so much better to wait for the one "my heart loves" rather than to "arouse or awaken love" before the due time (Song of Songs 3). I have found not guarding my heart and allowing myself to love before the "desired" time, brings heartache I do not wish to repeat. So I stand here happily and contentedly waiting. If there is to be a man in my life, then I know he will be that which God desires for me and I can happily wait for splendor of a truly Christ-centered relationship, and if there is not to be a man for me, (while, in truth, this is a little harder to swallow), I will rest in the arms of my Savior, knowing He is the only One who can ever truly fulfill me. And in regards to the comment of my brother who calls us Navigators, "Never Daters," I am now pleased and encouraged by this title. I will happily join the ranks of a group who do not wish to just "date around" or "have fun," but are earnestly watching and waiting for God to decide their future relationships. If I am to marry, I know God will bring that man into my life in such a way that I will never have to seek him out or pursue him. I know that I am to be pursued, because that is the model of Christ and the Church (his bride). Christ pursued us and in the same way I will wait to be pursued by the man, if there is one.

On a much lighter note: I am truly becoming domesticated. Last weekend a friend and I baked snickerdoodle cookies (which turned out amazingly, I might add). This weekend, during a rather funny old love story movie, I learned to crochet. What will next weekend hold? I don't know, maybe I will learn to make a five coarse dinner while knitting a sweater!

Sorry kids, lots of reading. I just had a lot I wanted to share.

I will leave you with one of my scripture memory verses, which I will type from memory, but then check for word accuracy and order. This verse speaks to me on so many levels. Actions in all things are so much stronger than words. If I claim to have faith, and my actions do not back it up, then what am I showing to others? If I try to love my "enemies" but can only do that with words, but cannot show them love with my actions, am I truly loving them? And lastly, because I have become such a stickler for the topic. I may never be able to believe someone's words about their love for me because I have been exposed to too many lies, but if I am loved and the love is proved to me by actions and truth, then I can truly believe it. What a perfect model of how we are to love each other.

1 John 3:18 Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with action and in truth.

(I added an extra "with" but not too shabby)

Wonderful

I am in a wonderful mood!

God provided for me all week with my two exams. The one I didn't want to study for because I though it would pollute my mind, went extremely well. The test I just took went extremely well. I didn't really have much time to study so the few things I did study were all that were on the exam. Awesome!

I am excited for the weekend, it will be an amazing weekend! Sleepover on Friday, Fountain Run Saturday morning, Hanging out with friends Saturday night. Sunday, I get to do church and e-team. Will be lots of fun!

Nothing is making me feel bad today! I'm so happy!

Carmichael

I read something today for my Bible Study that I would like to share.
Amy Carmichael 1867-1951.
Amy Carmichael's mother taught her to ask anything of God, for He promises to hear and answer. So three-year-old Amy knelt at her bedside and feverently prayed: "Dear Lord please make my brown eyes blue. Amen." With those words she slipped into bed and fell asleep, confident that she would awake with dazzling blue eyes. In the morning Amy rushed to the mirror only to discover that her eyes were as brown as ever. As a wave of disappointment rolled over her, she suddenly realized that "no" is as much of an answer as "yes." She had learned a valuable lesson. The Lord does answer prayer, but often the answer is no.


I think this is a valuable lesson for all of us.


This is why I love children. They have so much wisdom and foresight. I enjoyed working with the kids today because I felt like I really got to know them and spend time with them rather than just drill them on skills. I love my first graders, they are at a wonderful age. They are starting to become independent but still are willing to run up and give you a hug. I know I said I needed a hug, but the kids are providing it!

Challenge

Today was quite entertaining.

My essay test for my feminist class went extremely well. I really didn't trust that God would see me through this, but I guess that was the point of the exercise. Dawn suggested I find something in the book which contradicts all of the stuff I have been taught and I did. It was stuck in my head all day and delightfully kept me from internalizing any of the information! YAY!

Record

I have set a new personal record. I have officially made it 13 hours without using a restroom! What an accomplishment!

Hug

So I got my first male hug in a really long time last night. I'm really struggling now. I have been being so strong for so long, I feel like the hug made me let my guard down. I really wish I could have a good strong male hug. I haven't felt emotional in many many days, and now I can't stop crying... Stupid Lifetime movies. Why do they have to be so sad. I just feel the need to curl up in a little ball and let some of these emotions out, I just don't want to do it by myself.

Oh well, I'll just bottle it back up somehow.

Good News: I am hanging out tonight with a very good friend and I am really excited! Should be a lot of fun. Also another good friend and I should be getting in touch this week to meet and talk. Finally, the after rally for next Friday is a sleep over. I can hardly wait. I think all of these events will help evaporate this emotional state that I am in. I'm so blessed to have so many friends that care about me.

Friday

Friday was a good day. I had a visitor from home. It was good times. I had amazing chicken parm and a great brownie. It was really great catching up and spending time together. We went to Navs and I found this to be a nerve wracking experience. Navs is so very important to me, I am terrified of people not enjoying it or disliking it. I think I would be ok with this after Cory, but on reflecting, it still hurts when he says bad things about it. However, I think I got a positive report from my friend so that is good.

I seriously messed up my iPod software and the iPod. I'm scared. I have no idea how to fix it. And now I don't really have time to work on it. Oh well. Any computer nerds out there who can help me?

Well, my weekend of homework has begun. I am looking forward to fountain run study breaks though!

Elementary

I have always denied being one of the crazy El Ed people. They freak me out. However, today I got excited over a book of holiday coordinated worksheets for first graders. I will now hang my head in shame. I'm sorry Cory, I have become one of those people. Not quite Amy, but I think they are slowly getting me to come to the dark side.