Weekend

Well, here's some dancing updates. I had a rough, yet great weekend.

On Thursday nobody stayed for the last class that Tim teaches so I got a free hour lesson with him. It was amazing! I would love to just take lessons with him everyday. He is a wealth of knowledge. And while he is really hard on me, I know I learn a great deal. We worked on some salsa, Viennese, west coast, and rumba. I haven't danced rumba with him in forever. I miss that dance.

On Friday, my lesson went wonderfully. I was in a great mood and I took my mess ups and his criticism in stride. We bantered more than we have in a long time. It was great. He was more supportive that he has been in a long time too. I was getting frustrated with the cuban motion we were working on. Then he was careful to remind me how long it took him to master it. FYI, Tim has the most amazing cuban motion I have ever seen.

So lesson went really well, we sit down for him to make notes of what we worked on and talk about it more. I ask him if we need to double up on lessons before the showcase. He then tells me we are not going to be ready for my solo for the showcase and that I can't do it. Ouch. Now, I am struggling to hold all emotion inside and bury it deep, so he doesn't see how greatly he has crushed me. He then tells me that people typically have about two or three months to prepare. He asked me 2 weeks ago what I wanted to do for it, we clearly had not enough time from that point to work on it then. I was mad that he had built up my hopes without any real chance of being able to pull it off.

So while he was talking to me, I was adjusting my own attitude. Instead of being heartbroken, I tried to focus on the positives. I get WAY too stressed out and focused on being good and lose the fun of dancing. When I allowed myself to think, I realized I was sort of relieved to not be doing the solo. It took the pressure off. I was going to have to buy another package to double up on lessons, it was money I had, but I was not looking forward to spending it so soon. I would also have to buy a gown for my solo. That was looking at being about $350 that I didn't really have especially on top of buying a new package. So that was another relief. He also told me that we can dance in the Pro-Am Freestyle dances. Which is a waltz, fox-trot, rumba, and hustle. We will work out a tentative routine, which is open to change due to other couples on the floor. So, I still get to dance, and dance more. There is less pressure. And while I still get upset when I think about not being good enough to do a Viennese solo, the positives out weigh it.

Now the part that made it truly great, I am not going to type. :)