Work In Progress: Family

WARNING: THIS IS GOING TO BE A SAD/PATHETIC POST, IF YOU ARE NOT WANTING TO BE BUMMED OUT, PLEASE DO NOT READ.

Part of me is excited for Christmas, well, because it is Christmas. But a large part of me is really not looking forward to it. I need the break, I am anxious for this semester to end, but Christmas will not be the same this year. Every year it has always been the Driver Kids, but this year Cory won't be there. He is always the life of the party with his jokes and mannerism. He keeps us all in check and keeps me from beating up Kevin when he sings one to many songs with my name in it. Cory, you are greatly missed. Christmas just won't be the same without you.

On the up side, I am looking forward to spending some brother/sister time with Kevin. I feel as though I have never really gotten to know Kevin as an adult. He seemed to be just the exact amount of years older than me that he was gone before I got to a similar stage and even when he has been home, like Driver Family Christmases, I never got to spend one on one time with him because we were always a threesome. So Kevin, I am looking forward to spending time getting to know you.

I keep trying to remember the reason for Christmas, as cliche as that sounds, but I can't seem to get past the fact that my family just will not be the same this year, in so many ways. That is not to say we were always perfect in the past, with my girlish temper tantrums, Kevin's "Kim Songs," Cory's knack for getting really hyper in small places like when all three of us are in the back seat, and various other key problems. But at least all these annoyances are familiar. I know what to expect and I can imagine and laugh about how stressed I would be later. Sorry this is such a downer, but as I have started watching Christmas movies with family scenes such as "While You Were Sleeping" and am struck with the thought of what our Christmas has looked like and will look like this year.

So Kev, looking forward to spending time with you one on one, but Cory you will be sorely missed. Here are a few nostalgic pictures of memories with my brothers.